I want someone to be afraid to lose me
All I want is for someone to care…
On the bright side
Mom made fettichini alfredo because she knew I was ditched tonight and knew it would make me feel better
Don’t know what I would do without her
Idek why I’m so sad again lately, but let me tell you…
Things are getting bad again.
Is it bad I can’t even get my dad to do anything for me? like I now my mom would do anything for me in a heartbeat, but my dad on the other hand can’t even take like 30 mins. out of his day to take me out driving…
Just things like this that make you lose hope in everything.
Idk what’s wrong, maybe it’s me, maybe it’s others, but for some reason I’m never anyone’s first choice, I never have been and I really don’t think I every will be to be honest- everyone always have that ONE person they would choose over me, even my bf, even my family. I can honestly say I don’t have ONE friend that I cant go to to talk to about anything, I usually just get ignored. Like I can’t even text someone a picture and ask them their opinion of it for me without them ignoring me and never replying to me. Whenever someone tells my bf something he will always believe what they say over what I say, and what I say is the ACTUAL truth, like WHY THE FUCK would I lie to my own bf?
I hurts to bad to know that I’m no ones first choice, and frankly I probably won’t ever be. That’s's just they way things go now I guess. I can’t even get ONE person to text me constantly all day without ignoring me or ending the conversation.
I forreal don’t have just one person in my life that I can say is true to me. Is that bad that society came to that? That I can’t say I have a friend I would consider true to me? All I want is to be someone’s first choice for them to just drop everything for me, because in all honesty I would be that for someone.
I question everything that anyone says to me, no matter who you are, I won’t believe you, only because I’ve been lied to and manipulated into thinking things that weren’t true and that’s exactly why people are so fucked up nowadays.
So tired of fucking getting ready just for you after school, then u cancel plans.
let’s spend our week nights eating cereal on the floor
when there is a perfectly fine table behind us.
we can go to the movies and sit in the back row
just to make out like kids falling in love for the first time.
we’ll paint the rooms of our house
and get more paint on us than the walls.
we can hold hands and go to parties we end up
ditching to drink wine out of the bottle in the bathtub.
and slow dance with me in our bedroom
with an unmade bed and candles on the nightstand.
let me love you forever.
- Unknown (via perfect)
- The People You Will Fall in Love With in Your 20s (via herskeleton)
What do I do w my life?
Where will I end up?
Will I be a bum?
Will I ever have children?
A good job maybe?
A cute little house or a box?
I ask myself this all the time.
I just want answers.
Answers to life.